♥ Wednesday, September 26, 2007 ♥

to nor akasha,

it just seems impossible to call it a night when i just have the sudden urge to be feeling a little bit pensive tonight.at times like this,i just wish that my handphone would ring and your voice could be heard on the other line.this feeling i felt is just so crazy as you had just sent me home 3 hours ago.as the cold breeze from the night air brushes against my naked skin,i long for your warmth all over again.having you here right next to me;right now can be the most beautiful thing that can happen tonight.

thinking of those whimsical and bittersweet times we had shared together,its hard to believe that we have been standing strong for 17 months.i remember the first time you sent me home on your cute lil vespa,you shared with me about your past and deep down i felt a tinge of jealously as i thought you would not move on.but,never did i realize that you do harbored some feelings for me but yet you played it cool.yes dear,you are that cool.you always been one.

i remember the time when you are so tired but still insist on talking to me on the phone when i was in camp all alone with intention to accompany me through the night.i was busy yakking away till i did not realise that i've been talking for almost 2 hours all alone.you were still on the other line but just drooling away in your sweet slumber.the next day,you apologise profusely and sent me the most sweetest msg i could ever received.i just don't know whether to laugh or stay mad at you at that point of time.

you have changed alot since the first day i saw you up till now.during our first few months,times were rough as you were rarely home,im packed with a busy schedule when im away for camps,you partied with friends till i don't know where you'll spend your night and we were rather uncontactable.right now,i seen a newly changed man standing infront of me.you set your priorities straight and you are very highly motivated to have a good life.those days when i was first with you was over.i can never be more thankful to the one above and also to you.i believe no one can forces one self to change.he/she have to decides it for themselves and akasha,you suceeded in doing that.i can never be more proud of you. (:

i remember the first time i bring you home to meet my family as they invited you to join us to celebrate my sister's birthday.that was such a big moment that could ever happen in my life as you are the first person i brought home to meet my mother the tigress and my dad,the super 'friendly' one.you came in with such confidence and engaged in a conversation with them beautifully in the car.akasha,you have to realized that you fit in perfectly in my family potrait.

sometimes when i close myself,i see the both of us smiling and laughing happily as though our voices are the only one in this ever changing world.even the sound of thunder could never be heard.its just us roaring with laughter,teasing one another endlessly and having our candid moments in life.nor akasha,these 17 months really meant alot to me.these 17 beautiful months.you are my lover but you portrays beautifully as my bestfriend too.you painted such a colourful potrait in my life which i know i will always 'hang it on the wall'.




♥ yana. (: